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Shan is a 17yr old Carlow girl fighting a rare form of multi system Histiocytosis X which is an
autoimmune/ rare cancer disease.
While undergoing treatment she wrote an emotionally charged poem, detailing the harsh emotional
journey she is currently on.
Inspied by the poem Declan Caffery decided to put it to music, hoping this may raise the profile of her
cause and help raise the much needed funds to continue effective treatment of her illness.
The next step for Shan is treatment in Texas, this is an expensive but necessary trip which will rely
predominatly on donations and fund rasing.
Please give what you feel you can, no donation is too small.
To follow Shan’s progress and offer support please go to her Facebook;
Donations can also be made here;


Shans song.....
I sit here in the doctors.
Not knowing whats been said.
Thoughts rumbling inside of me.
While on a hospital bed.
I was told I was so ill.
I gulped in sudden shock.
Time stopped with a tick.
My heart turned to rock.

What have I to do now. To make things better. What have I to do now. To get back strong . Ill never yield to this. Im not a quitter . Im staying in this place. Where I belong..........

Never thought I'd feel this way.
The treatment was so much.
I went so pale and quiet.
Got frail to the touch.
Summer of hospitals over.
School times come around.
Every one stared at me.
But no-one made a sound.

They treated me so differently .
Like I was going to die.
All the faith I thought I had.
Soon turned into a lie.
Its been six months now.
I feel grey with pain.
I'll always wish to be ok.
But is it all to late.


released August 2, 2016
Words: Shan / Declan Caffrey
Music:Declan Caffrey
Gyitar and Vocals: Caff
Strings: Der
Engineer: Anto



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